If you have had a recent disappointment, today is the day of restoration and healing, Libra. If you have been involved in activities that have put a good deal of stress on the body, today you can expect relief and recuperation today. Try to shift your focus to appreciation and caring today. It is important that you recognize the current stress as an opportunity to spend some time regenerating your energies, and not wallow in disappointment or loss. If you can’t shake your bad mood, do not try to pass it off to others.
That’s my horoscope. They seem to be getting more accurate lately. Either that or I’m just looking for someone to tell me what’s right to do. Yesterdays was talk to the person you’re obsessing over today or it’ll become too late. I didn’t. Today’s is this.
Meh I miss him so much babe. There’s nothing I can do though. And I recognise that.
I guess I’m still just trying to sort out in my mind how someone can claim to love you, to be in love with you, and not want to be with you simultaneously. How they can be claiming that they’ve not been this happy in months; that they feel like themselves again. It hurts.
I wish he would tell someone he hates me, and never wants to see me again. It would make things so much easier. But instead he’s telling people he doesn’t know if he made the right choice or not. Apparently one miniute he’s really happy and the next he’s really down. I want him to start talking to me. Oh I found a picture I hadn’t seen before of him kissing me on the cheek, while neither of us were looking at the camera. It made me sad. It was taken about 2 weeks ago.
How can things have changed that quickly! I don’t understand 
Friends however have been incredible. You, firstly made me smile. I love that someones over protective of me, it makes me feel… valid. Elliot today was walking along with me, chatting normally but sensed my mood, and just put his arm around me for the remainder of the park kind of hugging me as we walked. And then I saw Clara for a relentless night yesterday, and it was so lovely I hadn’t seen her in ages, and she properly cheered me up. Her status is currently ‘Clara Twamley loves Nicky Phillips & how she can cheer her up so effortlessly 
Even though she drops Relentless in puddles & falls over all the time & always forgets her key & has positive & negative ‘meh faces’ & gets pretty violent when drunk & has terrible balance & shouts inappropriate/indecent things at the worst possible times & just generally fails at everything 
Sigh. …I love you.x ♥‘ Who wouldn’t feel loved after that. And then yesterday when I was going to town with Ollie, he said something along the lines of since I’m not with Loz anymore, and not constantly craving his attention (well…) he feels that he’s got me back.
I didn’t mean to lose people. I see now that I pushed them away, and I’m glad they’re willing to come back. I’m so so happy to be seeing people again, and I feel closer to my friends now.
It just doesn’t stop me completely missing Loz, and it doesn’t make up for the fact that I’m not even talking to the person I love anymore.
Sigh. Love is hard :/
